Today I just want to sit with just my mom and watch a movie. I miss her so much. Some days I recognize that I am an adult but at the same time it makes me a little sad. Sad at the fact that chaos is slowly starting to fill my life. Chaos that is going to speed up real fast and then not slow down for a long time. My thoughts are jumbled sometimes and my speech becomes lazy and I end up only saying the last word in my sentences.I am feeling really disconnected from everyone lately, it's been really hard to relate to people. Like being 11, you're too old to hang out with the 9 year olds but too young to hang out with the 13 year olds. I feel like no one really takes me seriously or could consider me as someone to talk to about anything deeper. Anything deeper than how classes are going or some topic that is way over discussed and everyones immediate response is thrown from their autopilot pile of phrases. Maybe it would just be easier to get married.